I am a horrible blogger. Life just got so busy and in all honesty the things I was going through was not something I could put out there on the interwebs, because it wasn’t just mine to share. But now things are returning to some form of normalcy, well as normal as they can be in my house (read: head)
What a rollercoaster year it has been since the last time I was on here. To start of with, we moved house. We finally took the plunge and bought our own place. Bliss!
We have made news friends, some we lost, but time moves on and so must we.
We got a bit of a surprise in May…another set of little feet that can steal car keys and unpack my wallet in Pick and Pay trolleys. And this time, it is a GIRL! What a mind blowing prospect. From the time I found out I was expecting again (once the shock wore off). I was mentally preparing myself for another little boy, thinking, it is is okay, I have this raising boys thing down to an art form. We can do this. Now? Well, now it is a whole different ball game.
The biggest change of all is the fact that I (with my amazing husband’s support) have decided to quit my job and become a stay at home mom. Who would have thought.
A stay at home mom? If you had suggested that to me 5 years ago I would have told you to stop drinking your bathwater. But there it is.
In 12 days I am finishing my notice period and trading in the morning commute to town for the morning school run.
I am scared. I am stressed. I am freaking out….just a little bit (okay maybe a lot).
What if I suck? Will I make it out alive…will the kids make it out alive?
Will one of them (or all), in 20 years time, lie on the couch in their Therapists office and pinpoint the time where it all ‘went wrong’ to the day I decided to stay home with them.
Only time will tell or perhaps the school psychologist. But that is a problem for another day.
For now I will follow Douglas Adams’ advice…